It's a song from Gravitation.

Also, I have become a bit of an insomniac. I can't fall asleep at night and when I do, I can't stay asleep. Not one night has gone by during my time at college that I have not woken up at some hour of the early morning. I think it usually happens somewhere between 4 and 6 AM, provided that I have already gone to bed during that time. Accompanying my sleeplessness, I have been the victim of frequent late-night headaches as well and my supply of Excedrin grows thin. Luckily, I haven't been able to remember most of my dreams when I wake from them. I have a nasty habit of always having bad dreams, no matter how happy I may be whilst conscious. So there is indeed a bright side.

Don't get me wrong, I am having a great time up here. I have agreeable roommates, a handful of close friends (mostly otaku), and plenty of things to do to keep me occupied. I'm feeling a little homesick this week, but I'm sure it'll get better soon. For some reason, I especially miss my high school art teacher. He was sort of like a father to me, since mine sucks. Anyway, I am hoping to have more work to post; mostly writing, since I am not in any visual arts classes this semester. All we've done in my writing class so far, though, is speak. I hate public speaking. Hopefully that will change soon.

In unrelated news: I saw the filmed final performance of RENT in theaters yesterday. It was amazing and I cried so much. I cry every time I watch the movie, but it was even more moving this time knowing that this was the end of it. You could see it affecting the actors. There was much more emotion in their faces and voices. Many of them cried as well. I want to talk about it with someone and I have to wait a few days before seeing my sister. Anyone else see it? Post your opinions!!

This has been a long journal entry. I needed somewhere to vent a little, since I can't bring myself to talk to any of my friends. I can't help but feeling like I'd just be bothering them. So thank you, to those who take the time to read this. Don't lose faith in me, I'll keep writing/drawing my whole life.

No new artwork in too long a time, if you ask me! All of my artwork came home with me, since high school is now over. Just haven't photographed and posted it yet, but I'm getting there. Also, I've been slacking greatly in the drawing department. Can't really remember the last time I opened that sketchbook of mine. There's a new photograph up, though. I'm a little proud of it. My ultimate goal is really to finish the development of my Mikari+Blank story. I've been working on it for several years now. Who knows, maybe it'll actually have a title soon?

As for the rest of my life, I'd say things are going very good lately. College is much less frightening now that I've been through orientation. Already made friends! I am mostly dedicating my summer to the friends I will not see again for a long time and so far we've had a lot of fun together. In short, I'd say everything is pretty good and I am happier now than I have been in a long time. There has just been something different lately, I guess.

My high school graduation is tomorrow at 2 in the afternoon. I have a huge mixture of emotions. I'm excited to be graduating, but I'm also afraid of leaving high school, I'm sad to leave my friends, and I'm mad that boys still suck. I'll hopefully be writing a lot more this summer since I'm going to be a Creative Writing major in college this fall. I'd also like to acquire a job, but that doesn't matter to all my adoring fans out there. I got all my artwork back from school, so when I get around to photographing it, I'll post it up here. Some of it is better than what I've already posted. Some of it is not. There's a new poem up. I guess you could call it a part two to this journal entry since it's about how I felt tonight and how I've been feeling since April 23rd.

My prom was this past Thursday evening. It was truckloads of fun and my dress was gigantic. It was blue to match my hair.

It won't let me change my "mood" thing, but I guess I still feel neglected by one person anyway.

I've been having trouble sleeping lately...

The funny thing is that I saw this coming from the very beginning.

Sometimes, a thing as simple as asking for help when you really need it can be so hard to do.


I'm just so afraid of being let down.

There's not much I feel the need to say. I would like to simply request that you read my featured deviation "Masquerade."

It just became a true story.